by: Staci Stallings
As you could probably tell from my post last week, I’m not a Type A personality, but I play one on TV.
My first problem is there is just so much to do. At the moment, I have three businesses, a husband, three kids, a church, two large extended families, a house, fundraisers at my kids’ schools. I teach Sunday School and do VBS, serve on retreat teams, and keep up with multiple friends. So there is never a moment that I couldn’t be doing something.
My second problem is I want to do so much. My mom always says that it wouldn’t matter if I cleared my calendar completely. Within a week, I’d find 50 new things to fill it. Which is probably true. In fact, a very good friend of mine prayed for about a year that things would slow down for me until she finally realized that this is just kind of me — going 110 with my hair on fire.
I think those two things meshed together are why I so understand the next part of the song we will talk about. We’ve talked about part of it already, but I want to focus today on the second part of this line:
“Just rest in My arms awhile,
you’ll feel the change My child.
when you come to the well.”
I remember nodding and crying about this line the first 72 times I listened to this song.
Let me tell you, resting in God’s arms is a HUGE change.
Strangely, I don’t think I do less now. In fact, I probably do a lot more, but now I’m not freaking out on a minute-by-minute basis. I know I can just do my best and whatever doesn’t get done, it’s okay. My worth is not tied up in what I do, what I get done, or how perfectly I do it anymore.
When things go wrong, I can breathe and go to that well, even for a moment, and it helps. A LOT!
A good example was this past weekend. On Friday I decided (God decided), it was time to make a video for Sunday School. I sat down at 11:30 a.m. and got up at 4:30 p.m. with about 90% of it done. I thought I was home free. Well, I got it finished and went to burn it to the DVD, and it wouldn’t work.
Computers sometimes have a mind of their own, so I figured I would leave it for awhile and when I came back, it would work. I was wrong.
I kept coming back, but it still wouldn’t work. I tried several buttons going around several different ways.
Old me would have been FREAKING OUT, but I just kept thinking, “Okay, God, show me what’s wrong.”
By Saturday, I realized I hadn’t put the audio part of my lesson together, so I went in to iTunes and made sure the two files were there. However, I didn’t have my iPod in here so I thought I would do it that night.
Saturday night, I finally had to admit the DVD thing wasn’t working. So I had to upgrade my program, which I thought would take a few minutes. It ended up taking a couple hours, so I started it and went to bed.
The next morning, it required a system shut down, so I did that. Now it was only 30 minutes to time to leave for Sunday School. With the system back up, I pulled up the video, and clicked Create… low and behold, it started and went right through the spot it kept snagging on before!
Then I thought, “OH, I’d better get that audio file.” I plugged it in as my daughter was in the living room coming up with praise and worship motions for the new DVD song. Now, we had 15 minutes.
DVD finished, she stuck it in to make sure it worked. Success! Finally!
However, my audio file didn’t download. I had to go in and manually find both files. Now we had 5 minutes to leave!
I found the files, got them where they needed to be, downloaded them to my iPod just as the kids started yelling, “Time to go!”
What I have learned is, one way or the other, God will always come through. You just learn to rest in His arms, no matter what’s going on. And you’ll know when you are resting versus when you are trying to do it yourself because honestly… you WILL feel the change!
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