By: Staci Stallings
There are times in life that things make sense, that we have a good idea that things are going well, that the people in our life are happy and healthy and things will be all right. Then there are the other times.
The other times have been on the increase in my life over the past couple of years. Before that, I could go months with no major crisis. Oh, I supposed there were small crises along the way–a big test to study for, a friend who needed to talk about a big life decision. Recently, however, the crises have multiplied in size and volume. Part of it is that my circle of influence has increased exponentially since I was in college.
I have more friends and a much bigger family. Along with all of those people come issues, and sometimes the issues are really, really big.
This morning my wonderful husband was stressing about work, specifically about something that is completely beyond his control. I knew because he was walking around the house… step, step, step, stop, big sigh. That’s my cue. He’s worried. Time to do something about it. But if he can’t do anything about it, I SURE can’t!
So I told him about “especially now.” You know, those times in life when you say to God, “Am I supposed to trust You even now?” And He says, “No, not even now… especially now.” Maybe you know those moments, when all looks bleak and hopeless, when you really can’t even see the next step in front of you, and the steps you see lead nowhere that you want to go.
My wonderful husband said, “I guess He’s testing me to see how much I trust Him.”
That’s the way I used to think too. Not anymore. So I said, “No, He’s letting this happen not to test you, but to teach you that you CAN trust Him. So you can see that He’s already there, where it’s okay, and you don’t have to worry about how He’s going to get you there. See, when it’s a test, it’s all up to you. When it’s a lesson, it’s all up to the teacher to show you.”
Later this morning I got a call about a young man whom I love dearly. He is having some health issues. It’s tempting to worry, to fret, to get panicked. But those will do no good. Instead, just like my husband and work, I am walking on faith.
Do I know at this moment that it will turn out perfectly fine? No.
Can I trust God to know exactly what He’s doing even if I don’t see it? Yes.
When you hit “especially now,” it’s the very definition of “walking by faith not by sight.” And the older I get, the more I find the wisdom and comfort in those words.Is that easy? Um… no. It’s not. Even though I know it. Even though I’ve seen it.
Through all the trials and tribulations, through all of the crises big and small, through all of those things I cannot see how this will turn out… I walk by faith, not by sight.
It’s amazing how often that lesson is needed in this life, and it never gets easier. It is always a choice. But it is, thank God, always an option because we have an awesome, loving God teaching us ever deeper to rest in Him, to lean on Him, to trust Him.
Maybe, in the end, that’s what this whole life is here to teach us.